Experiences from latest MAdhuban visit in the Avyakt [tapasya] month

My this trip to madhuban was the most meaningful one, thanks to you, thanks to Akka [she doesn’t like being called ‘mataji’ – I didn’t know!] and few other souls! I had the fortune to be present at murli class on 18^th morning at Pandav Bhawan and spend quality time in Baba’s karmabhoomi on the special day and get lost in baba’s memories and baba’s remembrance! Akka informed me just before sleeping on the previous night, that one seat is available in the car and we must leave very early morning! I was thrilled! Not only that, I also had the chance to meet face-to-face, Dada Narayan, at Pandav Bhawan, just before leaving, as he spoke to others.

On 17^th eve, as I sat at Prakash stambh, I was wondering, ‘how fortunate these souls are who have decorated the place with so much love and dedication, wish I was there to only witness how it is done or could extend a hand..’ and I got up with this thought! And lo and behold! As I walked out, a brother called out to me to give some time for sewa! I was dis-oriented for a moment, if this is true! I got the chance to do a bit of sewa at Prakash Stambh! Spending a good 45 minutes there! Can you believe that! My goodness!!

Not only did I get very good accommodation and access to the VIP dining thanks to [a soul] and Bhai, I also got myself a chair-seating at Baba Milan thanks to Pappa bhai [who treats me like a daughter! He is so loving]. I was overwhelmed! Had a very good experience, a very emotional one during baba’s presence there! I could really feel baba with me, baba giving attention to me! Also had a small tea-chat with Ratna Didi [Ratan Dada’s lokik spouse] – she knows me by face; she was in the same accommodation as we were. She is also very loving and sweet.

And when I reached Lotus on 19^th eve, after dropping Akka at airport, we sat down [myself, Bhai and Behn] to discuss the sewa regarding chocolate making for the new building inauguration in February. And then out of the blue, I heard that DJ is expected to arrive any moment! I could not believe my luck! Yes, we waited eagerly for here – although only for a few minutes but I was in her presence! Next morning, after I left [at 4:00 am] she did give drishti and Toli to everyone present before leaving for London! The same night, I also connected with a lovely sister from Ohio, exchanging a beautiful, meaningful and fruitful conversation!

Just trying to count my blessings! To me these small little things make a lot of difference, to you it may sound insignificant, but here, it makes me very happy – just to be myself! 

I am over-blessed…and very very fortunate! I feel so deeply loved! Until now, I ‘assumed’ that it is only I who is so loving, but here, I also received so much of love! Incidentally, just a month ago, we were trying to understand the depths of the efforts that yagya has made for sustaining so many souls [during the IYC retreat] and I was wondering if I can actually experience all of this on baba’s avyakt day! Baba really fulfils every pure wish of the soul!

You know what, after breaking the ice with Akka, we gelled so well! She is very chatty and loving too! She blessed me by saying, ‘you are a very plain hearted, pure soul, your nature is very sweet and loving, just keep it as is’! It is the confidence and faith that Lotus House has on me, that they consider me worthy of such a sewa!

I am so lucky, I met all the Dadis so closely [DRM and DJ at madhuban last month and DG in Mumbai with you all] and also had the confidence of Senior Behn! I don’t think I can count all my blessings and all my fortune! This is so in contrast to what I have been through last whole year!

Thank you, from the deepest of my heart [for making all these things happen] and lots and lots of love to you, with a tight hug! Baba has fulfilled the empty space in my life of a brother and a father ….and of a companion [baba himself]. I did not even know this empty space existed!